After ending 2014 on a high note with the critically acclaimed film, Queen, Kangana Ranaut made a mark at the box office in 2015 as well, with her double role in Tanu Weds Manu Returns. In fact, the actor feels that last year also gave her an opportunity to do some introspection, which helped her mature as a person, and made her “feel different from within”.
“There has been a certain shift in me. I feel that there is a lot of maturity in me now. Being creatively acknowledged and loved brings you to a point, where you feel a lot more stable from within. Last year has made me feel much older suddenly. It’s a weird feeling,” says Kangana, who admits she spent a lot of time with herself in 2015.
Kangana feels that even the characters she has played in the past few years have helped her evolve as a person. “Some characters show you the reality. They teach you that you are actually an insignificant bubble that can burst any time. And that realisation is crucial. That was a turning point for me. Now, I see the world differently. There has been internal growth,” she says.
A while back, Kangana was quoted as saying that she doesn’t need a Khan to make her a star. Recently, reports also revealed that she had turned down an offer to star opposite Salman Khan in a film that was to be produced by Aditya Chopra. Ask her what gives her the courage to make such decisions, and she says, “I don’t think it needs courage. I don’t want to do a film for the wrong reasons, now that I can afford not to. And it’s really not about a particular person.”
The 28-year-old says that after struggling in the industry for so long, she has finally reached a stage where she can choose to do a film for a character and not for other reasons. “For me, it’s very important right now to indulge in what I do. So far, I have only struggled. Once you get successful, then you can actually start working. Then you come to a stage where you’re done with the success part also, so you move on to other things in life. I don’t want to act all my life. But before I move on to other things, I want to indulge. This is my indulgence phase,” she says.
On the other hand, Kangana is glad that now people respect her choices, and she doesn’t have to prove herself as an actor anymore. “I don’t treat my job just like a job, and I’m happy that people understand and respect my choices, whether it’s about not going to awards functions, saying no to endorsing fairness creams or refusing to do films from big banners. I get a lot of support and respect, contrary to what people might think,” she says.
This year, Kangana sees herself going beyond what is expected of her. “I don’t want to presume things, but I want to travel a lot. I also want to spend time on my own, reading books, doing new things, like learning new dance forms or instruments, like the piano. I pretty much know where my work is going to go, what my projects are, what my schedule will be, etc,” she says, adding, “I want to attend a lot more summits and fashion shows. I like that world. I like doing things that are not related to films, because films can get very boring and characters can become very draining after a point. They can completely stop your growth as a person. They only take from you and don’t give back.”
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