Filled with remorse, teen Pakistan pacer Mohammad Amir has apologised for his involvement in the spot-fixing scandal, saying his dream of becoming the world's best cricketer lies in tatters and he is not sure if the game would ever want him back.
Amir had become the youngest player to take 50 Test wickets before being embroiled in the spot-fixing scandal last year. The 19-year-old said he was trapped and would now accept whatever punishment the court decides.
"My dream was to be the best cricketer in the world ... I do not know if cricket will ever want me again. I can understand why it would not," Amir said in a statement read out by his lawyer Henry Blaxland QC at the Southwark crown court here.
"I want to apologise to Pakistan and to everyone that cricket is important to. I do know how much damage this has done to the game, a game which I love more than anything else in the world," he said in a statement read out in court.
Amir said being selected for Pakistan was the best day of his life and he would have slept in his team shirt as he did not want to ruin it.
"The best day of my life was when I was selected to pay for Pakistan. I got my shirt the night before, I put it on and stood in front of the mirror for a very long time. I could not believe I was playing for Pakistan," he said.
"If I could have, I would have slept in it, but I didn't want to ruin the shirt. That moment was my dream. As soon as I began to realise I could play well when I was 13 my only dream was to play cricket for Pakistan," he added.