“Today I appeared for my mathematics paper. It was good, but did not go as expected. I did not fare well. Goddess Durga perhaps did not listen to me.”
This was the last diary entry Pushpanjali Raj had made before her death on Wednesday afternoon.
A Class XI student of a reputed south Delhi school, Pushpanjali died after allegedly jumping from the fifth floor of her hostel building on Wednesday. She used to write in her personal diary between 9 and 10 pm every day.
Pushpanjali, who celebrated her 15th birthday exactly a month ago, wrote after her first day at school: “I am very happy. I have got admission into the best school of Delhi. I will work hard and god will help me.”
The contents of the diary of the Class XI science student revealed that she was a deeply religious person.
Her father SN Raj refused to believe that Pushpanjali, who was a topper from Jharkhand, could have committed suicide.
Besides her diary, police seized her notebooks and other belongings from her room late on Wednesday night.
Though Pushpanjali was a biology student, she was also preparing for IIT entrance examinations.
“Will I be able to crack IIT? Am I capable of clearing it or not?” her diary read.
“My daughter could not have committed suicide. We spoke to her only a day ago. She was a bright student. I demand fair probe into the incident,” said Raj. He even spoke to her roommates after arriving in the city on Thursday.
“Her mother is inconsolable and her younger brother is repeatedly asking for her sister,” said a family friend.
On Wednesday, Pushpanjali was persent for the 2.30 pm attendance. Around 4 pm, she went to the fifth floor toilet, locked herself up and jumped after cutting open the wire mesh. A postmortem was conducted at Safdarjung Hospital.
“After the incident, her roommates were shifted to a spare room. On Thursday, the students who wished to go and stay with their local guardians for the day have been allowed to do so by the administration,” said the school principal.
“There have been rumours about ghosts and spirits after her death. We refuse to believe that she was in touch with spirits. She was an extremely studious person and mostly kept to herself,” said a hosteller.