Actor Alex Reid says he felt like killing himself when Katie Price, his estranged wife, ended their marriage.
"I was depressed... I've had some really dark moments over the last few weeks. At my lowest I thought it would be easier not to be here," Reid told News of the World.
"I feel humiliated. It was horrible because I usually live life to the full. I'm a strong guy. I'm a fighter. But this has drained me and taken all my energy and vibrancy."
Reid said he decided to break his silence over the disintegration of 11-month marriage after what he sees as attacks on him by Katie, reports dailymail.co.uk.
On her new reality TV show on Living, Price was seen making fun of Reid's dressing sense. Reid also revealed that he was left devastated by the speed with which she moved on to Argentinian model Leandro Penna after their relationship ended.
"After what's been said this week, and the stuff that's been on television, it's time for me to speak out and tell my story. Seeing pictures of her with another man whilst we are still married is awful. Yes, I'm in pain. And in the last few weeks I've felt anger, rage, despair...But there's a big part of me that still loves her," Reid said.
"When I first saw pictures of her and that bloke Leandro I felt like I'd been punched in the stomach. I just thought 'Jesus! How could she do that so soon, so publicly?'"
"This woman was, and still is, the big love of my life and leaving her was always going to be hard. I just wish it could have ended differently so that it hurt less. I would die for her and the kids," he added.