As you read this, I'm most likely to be sitting on the sets of my latest film, waiting for my director to call me for a shot, pondering…wondering… will they like it? Won't they like it? Can I write? Should I write? These are the very questions that have plagued me ever since I was asked to write this regular column and have stayed with me during my subsequent discussions with Vasantha, Sonal and the team at Hindustan Times.
I have always been open to doing new, different things and where I stand today is reflective of that way of thinking. What has made it easier is the unconditional love and support that I have received in abundance from all those who wish me well. Their acceptance for all that I have attempted, whether it was my role in Aitraaz or Fashion or my position as a brand ambassador to causes and brands, is not just encouraging but also very comforting.
But this is a whole new ball game… Essentially, I would be opening the door to a side of me that very few people have seen… my thoughts, my ideas, my likes, my insecurities, my fears, my joys, my family and friends… it's like asking me to climb Mount Everest in a mini skirt and high heels, with a blindfold on! Don't get me wrong… the problem is not that I have to share myself with you… the problem is me. I am a hugely private person. I come from a normal middle class background and was thrown into the world of cinema by a quirk of fate, some luck, an idea from Sid (my little brother) and a whole lot of blessings.
I didn't understand how it all worked at first and maybe I still don't, but from those early days, I was and have remained, fiercely guarded about my personal life and hugely protective of those who are close to me. So you can understand my predicament. But… it's a new year and with it will come many new dawns, new beginnings and new adventures. And this column is one such adventure that is equally daunting, exciting, challenging and fun. I've already thought of many things that I'd like to share with you and I can only hope that you will spare the time to catch up with me week after week.