Reality TV star Jade Goody had asked her mother to smother her with a pillow, but only after Mother's Day.
Heartbroken Jackiey Budden admitted she considered helping her cancer-stricken daughter die but knew Goody's new husband Jack Tweed would have been horrified, reports themirror.co.uk.
"We watched her slowly disintegrate. It was more heartbreaking than just seeing someone die," said Jackiey.
"She wanted me to put a pillow over her head. I really didn't want to see her go that way. I thought, I don't want to have to put a pillow over her head and suffocate her without anyone knowing," she added.
Goody died March 22.