I have come to terms with the feelings of a wounded helpless person. I have scored 91.45 per cent in my SSC examination. Some may say that I’m over ambitious, but that is not the case. I have scored badly in some of my strongest subjects. Some of the scores are so low that they contradict the knowledge that I thought I had gained from my scholastic years.
Here comes the question of rechecking. But all the learned elders whom I have talked to, have advised me against it. They believe that it is a useless process. Instead I have received suggestions to accept what has happened as fate, and move on, because hard work eventually pays off.
Analysing the two suggestions that I have been given, I learnt that I should speak up whenever I need to, but also remember that no one is listening, even those who have a paid job to do so.
All the composite French students of my school had changes in their seating arrangements made at the last moment, because of which, all of us sat next to each other during the exam. When the results appeared, we noticed a pattern in the marks. Five to six students got 70 marks in English.
The social science marks were constantly decreasing and I, being the last in the order, had suffered in each subject. I never thought that I would ever have to worry about my admissions. But due to the best of five subjects format and my low marks, I wonder whether I will even get a seat in any good college, let alone wishing to study the subjects of my choice.
The real world
I’m hurt because my first step in the real world has turned into a fight for getting what I deserve. I don’t know what destiny has in store for me, but I do know that I’ll let nothing in the world become a barrier between me, my hard work and my success.
One more truth has dawned upon me — that you have to be someone known, to make yourself heard. Though this result will really not matter in life’s long journey.
But for me, the question is not of the result, but of whether later in life, I will have to accept everything that comes my way, just because I’m another common person.
Having some vestiges of hope still left within me, I’m not going to leave any stone unturned in the rechecking process I’m getting involved into.