Divorce from Tom a major shock: Kidman
Actor Nicole Kidman says that she still loves her ex-hubby in an interview in Ladies' Home Journal.india Updated: May 09, 2006 18:48 IST
Nicole Kidman says her divorce from Tom Cruise was a "Major shock" and that she still loves him.
"That was a major shock," the 38-year-old actress says in an interview in the June issue of Ladies' Home Journal, on newsstands today.
"He was huge; still is. To me, he was just Tom, but to everybody else, he is huge. But he was lovely to me. And I loved him. I still love him," she tells the magazine.
Cruise filed for divorce in February 2001 after 10 years of marriage, citing irreconcilable differences. The divorce was finalised later that year.
"I always knew the rug was going to be taken out from underneath me at some stage,"
Kidman says. "I didn't think it was going to happen in the way it happened. I had seen my mother battle breast cancer, so I had a fear of my health being jeopardised that was really where I was thinking mine would come".
"I knew I was going to get hit with something. But I think a divorce, and the demise of what your family is, is a little death in itself."
Cruise and Kidman adopted two children, Isabella, now 13, and Connor, now 11.
"I feel enormous love for whoever my children's birth parents are," Kidman says. "And if my children choose to go find them at some stage, I can't wait. Because it's the weirdest thing.
I actually feel (they're) very connected to us as a big, strange family, and whether they choose to search for them or not, who knows."
Kidman, who stars in the upcoming Fur, about photographer Diane Arbus, is reportedly dating country singer Keith Urban, 38.