Aryan Vaid, who was expelled from Sony TV's reality show "Bigg Boss", says massage sessions by other contestants on the show "embarrassed" him.
"I must say some of the massaging that the girls gave to the other contestants was highly erotic and embarrassing to watch," Aryan told IANS.
But there's big-time bonding happening among the eliminated participants of "Bigg Boss". Aryan met two ex-participants - Deepak Parasher and Rakhi Sawant (before she returned to the show) - for a secret dinner.
"It was real and yet surreal. Deepak and Rakhi were people I had lately been isolated with. When we look back at the Bigg Boss experience, it seems so strange and yet so reflective of today's times when nothing is private anymore," Aryan said.
"I did find true love in that place. But, when I realised Anu (Anupama Verma) and I were being watched by millions on television, it felt strange. Having said that, I must confess Anu and I didn't feel the least self-conscious about expressing our feelings openly.
"We forgot about camera and microphone. And we weren't doing anything wrong. There was nothing sexual about our encounter," he said.
While dining with his ex-mates, Aryan also watched himself on television.
"It felt like another world. But I was very upset when I saw Anupama crying for me. I miss her and want to marry her. The only communication I've been allowed with her by 'Bigg Boss' is a card that was reached to her through the show's producers."
Aryan admits the show has changed his life.
"People almost feel as though they know me in and out. There's a sense of intimacy between the public and the contestants. After my elimination, I'm being invited to attend various events. In fact, I was in Pune recently to attend a kids' function.
"It feels good to have connected with audiences, though I must admit I wouldn't like to run into any of men at the house in Karjat except the two Deepaks Parasher and Tijori," he added.