Veer came into my life like a breath of fresh air. We had so many things in common. What totally floored me was his integrity, child like simplicity and dedication towards his work.He was too mature for his age. Life was indeed beautiful as I discovered so many aspects of myself which were latent for so many years. He taught me many things that I never knew. For instance, there's always the first time. Yep... I knew it was a karmic connection right from day one, as I was only close to Veer and would share all my thoughts with him.
But all this was shortlived when others came into our world. Secrets were exposed. Motives were questioned. Why do I share? Why do I feel there is a connection? Why do I not give importance to personal life? Integrity was doubted. Distance was created. The humilation was unbearable. My soul was exposed when the mails and SMS messages were shown to all and sundry. It hardly took time for all to pass judgement. Soon, I became an object of ridiculism.
Repeated confrontations just could not set things right, as Veer kept denying it and reiterated that he was just the same. But in my heart, I knew he had changed long back because of the influence of friends. At times, peer pressure forces you to change your perspective and Veer wanted to fit into that group. He wanted to have a sense of belonging and what better a way to share someone's introspection, to get an edge over others or maybe just a plain ego boost.
I could not stop because I knew he was my twin flame, and endured it all, putting my self respect at stake. They say that in twin flames, the thoughts are never ending and it is very difficult to let go of the connection. The bond is intense, even when they are apart. But yes,I asked Veer to say ‘stop’, because then, I would feel that I have completed the karmic cycle and I would be free. The transition would then be natural without any pain. I am just hoping that Veer understands. That one day, realization will dawn on him that I never expected anything, because twin flames do not have any expectations.