Turbulence inside me more intense
My last flight on Wednesday from Delhi to Kolkata was no fun at all. But, strangely, it wasn't the turbulence due to bad weather that was bothering me. Rather, it was the two turbulent losses in this season’s T20 tournament that were occupying my mind. Gautam Gambhir writes.india Updated: Apr 19, 2013 00:11 IST
I think I am one of the many passengers who get nervous whenever there is turbulence on the flight. I also know quite a few cricketers who read scriptures before fastening their seatbelts at the time of take off and repeat the same as thanksgiving when their flight lands. Then, there are a few who feel this is the end and start introspecting by listing out their sins! Later, when the flight lands safely, we all look back and have a hearty laugh. Of course, that list of sins is a major source of fun for days and months.
My last flight on Wednesday from Delhi to Kolkata was no fun at all. But, strangely, it wasn't the turbulence due to bad weather that was bothering me. Rather, it was the two turbulent losses in this season’s T20 tournament that were occupying my mind.
Normally, I am the first one to look out of the window when the plane shivers. Instead, I was looking inside, deep inside, searching for reasons for our strange loss to Kings XI Punjab. The turbulence inside was more violent than the one outside.
Our plane landed safely at the new airport in Kolkata. It was wet all around. Earlier, a storm had gate-crashed Kolkata's evening. It had left by the time we reached. TV channels were reporting about it; our security guards were talking about it. Everyone was thankful it was over. But inside me, it wasn't. I was still thinking if it was the missed chance to get Manpreet Gony out or was it the lack of runs by our middle order? Or was it Morgan and my wickets that put paid to our chances to win the game? The storm inside was gathering pace.
Pune Warriors too lost badly to the Sunrisers. As we waited for our flight's departure announcement, we were all watching it in the lounge at the T3 airport in New Delhi. They couldn't get 120 to win. Someone suggested that we could take heart from Pune’s performance, which was said to be worse than ours. Thankfully, it was only the airline attendant’s thought.
My teammates had dumped the attendant’s comparison in 15 seconds flat. This clearly showed that there was positivity in our group. I woke up on Thursday thinking about this particular incident. The positivity was working to tone down the storm. Later in the afternoon, I had a heart-to- heart chat with Yusuf Pathan and Manoj Tiwary. Yusuf's family is here. My newlywed teammate looked happy, cheerful and fresh. He listened to me patiently and, by the time the conversation ended, we were discussing marriage more than cricket.
Manoj is a great guy and my partner while we play football on PSP. Like me, he too is an intense cricketer. I could gauge from talking to him that the storm was brewing inside him as well. He never shows his feelings and is generally very quiet. He didn't say much today either. I think, he will let his bat do the talking. We are waiting to hear that Manoj.
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The writer is KKR captain