In the last 22 days, Hindustan Times brought you reports on 42 people in Mumbai who could not stand up to pressures of urban life and committed suicide.
Today, we tell you the story of Nitu Chugh (name changed), a 27-year-old MBA graduate, a senior executive in a reputed software firm and a mother, who attempted suicide but lived to tell the tale.
Her story is not just about surviving the nightmare, but more about fighting the odds and overcoming them.
My life changed
For the worse after marriage
“I was working when I got married four years ago. My husband was with a reputed company. Initially we were very happy, but things changed and we fought frequently over petty issues. I became a mother (of a son) and was forced to give up my job. He started treating me like a slave, often beating me mercilessly… I went to my parents’ place. He patched up promising he would never shout at me. But soon the fights resumed…
The thought of committing “suicide” never came to me. We had had a massive fight that morning. I was completely shaken and numb. I did not know what I was doing. I bought two dozens of sleeping pills. My husband was in the drawing room. I went into the bedroom and swallowed all the pills. My mind was devoid of any thought… not even of my child.
When I opened my eyes, I saw the doctor, my neighbours and parents around me.
After a long period of treatment, I recovered. I left my husband.
Now I am working again and living in my own flat with my son and parents.
Please don’t ever attempt what i did
I am still living with my problems, but I have learnt to fight them. The incident has taught me to value life. I was stupid and a coward. I did not care for my own life and also for those who care for me… No one should repeat what I tried to do. God helps those who help themselves.
If you find things difficult to handle, talk about them with friends and parents. Don’t keep your feelings and problems to yourself.
Whenever you find yourself depressed, don’t stay alone. Go shopping, exercise or at least surround yourself with people.
Students should channel their energies in things they like… reading books, meeting friends, surfing the net, going out and seeing new places. Exercise regularly to tire yourself out. A good night’s sleep can help erase a lot of negative thoughts.
Parents must realise times have changed. They must encourage their children to do what they are good at — sports, music, and art — and not pressurise them to study. After all, it’s your own child…
— As told to