Cherie Blair was shocked by the ruthless manner in which the tragic news of her miscarriage was used by her husband and former British prime ministers media managers for political reasons.
In the latest extracts from her memoirs Speaking for Myself, published in The Times daily of Britian today, the wife of the former Prime Minister Tony Blair said that even as she lay in pain and bleeding back in 2002, her husband and his communications chief Alastair Campbell insisted on informing the media immediately about the news of her miscarriage so that a delay in their planned family holiday did not trigger speculation of an early invasion of Iraq.
"I couldn't believe it. There I was, bleeding, and they were talking about what was going to be the line to the press. I put down the receiver and lay there staring at the ceiling as pain began to grip," Cherie wrote in an emotional account of losing her baby at the age of 47.
In an astonishing disclosure, the high-profile lawyer also reveals that her fourth child, Leo, was conceived as she had failed to pack her usual contraceptive equipment while they were guests of the Queen at Balmoral.
"This year  I had been a little more circumspect, and had not packed my contraceptive equipment out of sheer embarrassment," she said in her autobiography serialised in the British daily.
"As usual up there it has been bitterly cold, and what with one thing and another... But then, I thought, oh I cant be. Im too old. It must be the menopause."
Cherie also writes that Gordon Brown was one of the handful of people her husband insisted on telling about her pregnancy. "You have to understand Cherie. Its a very sensitive topic for him. The whole issue of my being a family man is very sensitive to him," the former premier reasoned when she asked what possible business it could be of Brown, who was the Chancellor of Exchequer in his cabinet.