All rounder Andrew Symonds has dismissed suggestions that he owed an apology to his Australia teammates for his 'go-fishing' act that led to his suspension from the game but revealed that he underwent a confidential process after which he is fully committed to the sport.
"I don't really look at life like that," he said when asked if he owed an apology to his teammates when he returns to the side after 76-day lay-off to play in a Twenty20 exhibition match.
"I made a mistake, I admitted that. I have done a number of things to not allow things like that to happen again, so no I am not going in there to give anything back to them. I'm going in to make a go of my opportunity, which I have been given now," he was quoted as saying by 'The Age'.
Symonds will play for his country against an All-Stars team in his bid to make a comeback to the Test fold.
The middle order batsman, who was contemplating quitting at one stage after the 'go-fishing' episode, said he was motivated to return because he enjoyed playing and was ready to carry the responsibilities that come with it.
"I have been through a confidential process, which none of you will probably find out anything about, but it is something I have done and I have drawn a lot out of it and I am happy with where I am and, believe it or not, I have actually enjoyed it," he said. "I love the challenge of the game out in the middle, but there are so many other things you have to do being an Australian cricketer and they are the things I was thinking about, but I have made that decision now and I am committed to giving my all," Symonds added.
{{/usCountry}}"I have been through a confidential process, which none of you will probably find out anything about, but it is something I have done and I have drawn a lot out of it and I am happy with where I am and, believe it or not, I have actually enjoyed it," he said. "I love the challenge of the game out in the middle, but there are so many other things you have to do being an Australian cricketer and they are the things I was thinking about, but I have made that decision now and I am committed to giving my all," Symonds added.
{{/usCountry}}The decision to send Symonds home from the three-match series against Bangladesh in Darwin after he missed the team meeting was taken by acting captain Michael Clarke and team management.
Clarke's tough stance was said to have tested the relationship between the pair.
"Sometimes people are given roles and positions where they have to do that and that's what those blokes were given, and part of that role was to make a decision on what I did in Darwin."
Symonds doubted he had destroyed any relationships, but admitted he could not expect allowances to continue to be made.
"If I make another mistake it is not going to be a pretty ugly ending and I realise that, so I have got to be careful but at the same time I have still got to be the player and the person that I am when I play my best cricket," he said.