Of victory and defeat

I did not win this last competition and there is a lot of soul searching and self depreciation that accompanies the outcome.

I’m finally back on home ground, but I don’t know whether to feel happy or sad. I was so caught up with my schedule that my mind space had no “space” for any other thoughts!

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I have a rather similar reaction to victory and “defeat”, for want of another word. I did not win this last competition and there is a lot of soul searching and self depreciation that accompanies the outcome. Ironically, I am no different when I win! Even in victory, one does ask oneself if they can do this every time? There is always an emotional meltdown at some level within oneself and I take my time to come out of it. I wonder what its like for my fellow columnists.

Bollywood works pretty much on the same criteria? Do they approach their performances with the same in-built apathy? A successful box office can be pressure, too, the next time a movie releases! I guess its the same formula for everyone.