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Director Meghna Gulzar: My failures were more difficult for my parents than me

The filmmaker says her parents, lyricist Gulzar and yesteryear actor Rakhee, did not know how they could help her and could do nothing about her box office failures.

bollywood Updated: Jun 13, 2018 11:52 IST
Director Meghna Gulzar’s latest release Raazi has done very well at the box office(Photo: Raajessh Kashyap/HT)

She started her directorial career back in 2002 with Filhaal but filmmaker Meghna Gulzar had to wait till 2015 to taste her first box office success, with Talvar. She says it was not easy for her to deal with the failures but adds that more than her, the failures affected her famous parents, noted lyricist Gulzar and yesteryear actor Rakhee.

“My earlier films (Filhaal and Just Married in 2007) did not work at the box office. It was of course discouraging and it was difficult to process. For me, it was doubly difficult because of my parents. Having parents, who have been so successful professionally and they seeing that I am not finding success, was tough. Also, they did not know how they could help me. That is partly because I wouldn’t let them. It was more difficult for them to be watching all of that going on, and for me frankly, more than my failure it was their trouble that worried me,” says Meghna.

“Having parents who have been so successful professionally and they seeing that I am not making it and find success was tough. And also they did not know how they could help me and could not do anything about it.”

Back-to-back failures also made her doubt herself and her ability as a filmmaker. Meghna shares that she even wondered whether she should continue with the way she was making films.

“I would have questions of self doubt and wonder whether I should recalibrate my work, as to how to make films more successful at the box office. I thank god and the audience and the media that I didn’t have to do that. And when I did get the success, it was not at the cost of betraying my sensibilities. I remained true to my sensibilities and my craft,” muses the director, whose latest directorial venture Raazi, starring Alia Bhatt and Vicky Kaushal, has done extremely well at the box office.

Having famous and successful parents often mean that there is a huge burden of expectation that their children have to face with their endeavours. But Meghna says that it clearly has never been the case with her.

“It never is because for me they were never the milestone that I had to cross or reach. They are my parents. The only thing was that they were my benchmark for grace and pride and quality of work. For me all that mattered was that I had o make them proud. The pressure was never mine,” concludes Meghna.

First Published: Jun 13, 2018 11:51 IST