Irrfan Khan's wife Sutapa Sikdar pens a note for his death anniversary: 'Been a long journey of correcting each other'

  • Sutapa Sikdar remembered the beautiful life she shared with her late husband, actor Irrfan Khan, on his first death anniversary. She also shared how she has been facing life without him now.
Irrfan Khan is survived by wife Sutapa Sikdar and their two sons Ayaan and Babil.
Irrfan Khan is survived by wife Sutapa Sikdar and their two sons Ayaan and Babil.
Published on Apr 29, 2021 06:09 PM IST
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Irrfan Khan's wife, Sutapa Sikdar wrote a long, emotional note on the occasion of the first death anniversary of the actor. He died last year on April 29, in a Mumbai hospital, after a two-year-long battle with a neuroendocrine tumour.

Sutapa posted a picture of Irrfan, with his back covering most of the frame, as he bent forward to put his hand in what looks like a stream of water.

Sharing the picture of Irrfan, Sutapa wrote on her Facebook page, "'People living deeply have no fear of death:'... Anais Nin your favourite poet lrrfan. Last year tonight me and my friends sang songs for you, all your favorite songs. The nurses were looking at us strangely as they were used to religious chants in critical times but I had overdone that for you irrfan morning evening and night for two years and since they told me it was time I wanted you to go with memories you loved we sang day you left for the next station I hope you knew where to get down without me.. "

She further wrote, "363 days eight thousand seven hundred and twelve hours..when each second is counted . how exactly does one swim this huge ocean of time. The clock had stopped At 11.11 on 29th april for me ....irrfan you had a keen interest in mystery of numbers ..and funny you had three 11's on your final day . some say actually many say this is a very mystical number 11/11/11. How does one walk ahead the pandemic just adds to the anxiety, fear and pain. The days went by with umpteen responsibilities some extremely new ones like signature galore for changing of name. My fingers kept stopping on that how could I just take his name away and make it sutapa."

Sutapa also remembered their days together in NSD. "I was unable to sign took a day off and the name game played on my mind. Like a film in a projector .i remember sitting outside NSD late evening ..beautiful girls from kathak kendra floating out ..they were all very well dressed up unlike us we were always in our blue trackpant and sky blue t shirt _both boys and girls wore the same ...and you mispronounced my name and I tried to correct and rubbed it in as usual my permanent thing that north Indians are so stupid and they only can pronounce sunny Vicky Rahul type names and proceed to kake ki dukaan in gol chakkar to have ek bata do chai ....its been a long journey of correcting each other spanning a life time. fighting arguing laughing evolving together. you were the loner in a crowd."

She also mentioned the suffering that the world has seen, amid the pandemic, over the past one year. She wrote, "And now a whole crowd has followed you up there the way OM from the tea stall in the nukkad went some years back has he made a chai ka stall up there? are you having ek bata do chai there. and are drinking water from the running streams? All of you stay in peace remember us that we loved you, all of you. And remember all of you is missed by some one or the other ..all your families grieve ..may you all rest in peace! I hope there is enough space I hope some of you will forgive us for not been able to give a respectable cremationArrfan#NSD#nationbleeding#wearesorryftrestinpeace."

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Marking Irrfan's first death anniversary, Sutapa said an interview with Hindustan Times, "Irrfan insisted on reflecting upon every action and that’s what has been very helpful — the process of letting go, of not making hue and cry of small worries, remembering him that if he could handle a fatal disease why am I making a big deal about the smallest of things. He’s like a fragrance. He floats in my house. He’s alive in my house, and anyone coming to my house doesn’t feel he is no more."

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