Around five years ago, when I became a gigolo, I was least bothered about things such as why women, particularly married ones, would pay for sex and about whether it makes them feel guilty. All I wanted was easy money to supplement my income as a content writer with an advertising company in Delhi.
As a sex worker, I make Rs 5,000 to Rs 15,000 depending on who I am catering to and how much time I give. Everyone likes easy money, especially when it comes with sex, something which all of us enjoy.
Having met so many, I think I now know a bit about these women. I have an idea, at least. All of them have different reasons for reaching out to men like me. I do not think a woman plans on sleeping with a gigolo. Yes, there are bachelorette parties where girls do it just for fun but they do not form major chunk of my clientele.
Most of the time, when I am with women, I find that they are either in a lonely marriage, have no sense of belonging, or want to raise their self-worth. This is what I have gathered after catering to women from varied backgrounds. I've been with housewives, business executives, air-hostesses and students.
At times, I could not help wondering what these women were going through in their personal lives. A regular client in South Delhi is married to an affluent businessman. They have half-a-dozen luxury cars. Every time I meet her, she becomes crazy and behaves in a way that one would expect her to behave with her husband.
She shows me all the things that she has recently bought and introduces me to her online friends over Skype. She buys me clothes, wrist watches, phones. And she has so much to talk about. We have had sex many times, but with her, the act becomes secondary.
Then, there was this college girl whom I met only for one night at a hotel in Noida. She paid Rs 10,000. It turned out that her boy friend had recently dumped her. There were no expressions on her face. Sitting on the bed, she kept talking about him until she fell asleep.
Three days ago, I served a housewife in Faridabad. It was my fourth visit to her. Her husband is in the armed forces and her kids are in boarding school. She just likes to hold my hand and listen to me talking of my experience as a gigolo. Once I had fever for which she gave me medicine.
At the other extreme, are women who are looking for nothing but for pure sexual pleasure. They have no qualms about what they want and they treat me like an object.
But overall, though, I think women want more than fun.
(As told to Danish Raza)