Urmila Matondkar's mystic moments
Urmila talks about the influence of Banaras on her life, with Hiren Kotwaniindia Updated: Apr 06, 2006 18:27 IST
After winning accolades in
Maine Gandhi Ko Nahin Mara, where Anupam Kher played an author-backed role, the original oomph girl Urmila Matondkar returns to centre stage with Pankuj Parashar's
Banaras:A Mystic Love Story. In a tête-à-tête, the actress spoke about the film, the city and herself.
Beginning with Banaras, she says, "Though I haven't been to Banaras before, the minute we reached the place, there was a huge crowd, lots of chaos and madness. Slowly, the essence of the place grows on to you and gets into you." Admitting to not being an overtly religious person, she says, "After a couple of days I felt a different vibe about the city as I visited the Kabir Samadhi, Buddha Temple and Krishnamurthy Institute. One gradually sees a different perspective of everything."
|Urmila feels that her stint in the holy city of Banaras affected her as a person|
Banaras, the film, she says, "It's a simple love story, with a strong spiritual track running parallel to it, which makes you look at life from an aspect not seen before. And in the 40 odd days that I was shooting there, I was oblivious to everything that was happening in the world at that time."
So did the long stay in Banaras influence any changes in her as a person? "I would be lying to say that it didn't. But it's a gradual process; you realise there's a lot more to life than just your career and related issues. After a point in life and career, you've grown as a person within, and you need to give something back, as a person and as an actor."
And did the entire experience make her more spiritual? "Spirituality is a closed door in my mind, which I'm unsure of opening. I don't know if what lies beyond will attract me more than I can handle or scare me. I've never had a superficial view of life beyond the obvious."
Having shared the screen with Naseeruddin Shah as a child in
Masoom, she recollects her recent shooting stint with him as "really wonderful. As a child actor I had no clue, but having shared the frame with him for
Banarasis an experience in itself. His grip over the medium and knowledge and control of his craft as an actor makes you realise you're as much of a novice now as you were earlier." Which is why, she admits, "It's my loss that I couldn't work in his directorial debut,
Yun Hota To Kaisa Hota? I very much wanted to do the film when I was offered it, but it got delayed and I couldn't manage the dates. I'm sure he has made a wonderful film as he is such a marvellous actor himself. "
Having sometimes rebelled for love and sometimes sacrificed it on screen, how would she handle such a situation in real life? "It's very hypothetical question. My parents are broad-minded and understanding so I don't think such a situation will arise I my life," she says matter of factly. Does she miss not having a relationship in real life? "Of course. I would be lying if I said no. But I'm not the kind of person to get involved in one just for the heck of it or jump from one relationship to another. The person I get involved with has to contribute something to my life and vice versa."
And before you can ask anything more on the subject, she maintains, "It will happen in its own right time."