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Take it or leave it

Rishwa Rishi writes a letter to his wife explaining how the other woman in his life has become a significant part of his existence.

sex and relationships Updated: Apr 04, 2009 15:48 IST
Rishwa Rishi
Rishwa Rishi
Hindustan Times

Dear Bi,

It’s been a long time since I haven’t written you a letter. We met years ago as new recruits in our place of work.

I was taken aback when someone called out to you. In its abbreviated form, your name reminded me of my ex-flame. I was still living with her memories then.

To me, her name signified ‘deceit’, so I kept my distance from you. But destiny had other plans. Although we were in different departments, we were working on the same floor.

Everyone used to discuss you. Besides the receptionist, you were the only other woman in office. You seemed to be a charming woman but quite reserved by nature. You kept to yourself most of the times. Many mistook this for arrogance.

Our marriage

Gradually, the ice melted and we started talking to each other. We became good friends and you became an integral part of my life.

My family members took a great liking to you. Every time I went out of town, you visited my parents just to make sure they were okay.

I felt good when I was with you. I wished we could be together forever. I used to propose to you in a joking manner.

Luckily, one day, you confessed your feelings for me.

We were on cloud nine that day. I felt as if I had achieved everything in life. My family was thrilled but there was great opposition from yours. I loved you even more for standing by me. Eventually, after a lot of persuasion, your parents gave in.

Scaling heights

You quit your job for a while after marriage. I don’t know when our bickering started. We accepted it as a natural phenomenon in most marriages. You often complained about various things but I chose to ignore them.

After some time, you stopped complaining. I guess that was the beginning of a rift between us. I wanted to reach out to you but didn’t know how.

Soon, our son was born. We thought things would change for the better but it only got worse.

But I was grateful to you for being my support system. I wouldn’t have scaled great heights in my career without you. I need your support, especially now.

Falling in love

I didn’t realise when I got involved with Wi. Circumstances drew us closer and I ended up falling in love with her. I don’t know why.. I still don’t know.

Initially, she was like a breath of fresh air in my emotionally dull life. I could unwind and relax with her. I found solace in her company.

She promised me that she would divorce her husband. She wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. And suddenly one day, she wanted to go abroad with her son. But she promised that she would come back.

The truth

I found it extremely difficult to see her off at the airport. Two months before she left, I spent a lot of time with her and her son, even though it meant staying away from my own son.

It’s seven months now and she hasn’t returned yet. I’ve preserved all her gifts and I’m still wearing the ring, which she had slipped on my finger before leaving. We are also in constant touch over the phone and Internet.

I want you to know that she will always be a part of my life. Nothing in this world can separate us. I promise to take care of you and our son, but no action or words of yours can bring us close again. Wi has become the core of my existence. Take it or leave it, but this is the truth.

(Rishwa Rishi is a HT Café reader)

First Published: Apr 04, 2009 15:41 IST