"I thank God daily"
Model Sapna Kumar has tried to be a good human being, consciously not hurting anyone. She is sure God appreciates her for just the way she is.india Updated: Aug 19, 2003 11:57 IST
For me God is not a particular image or an idol that I must worship. Also, I am not the kind who follows a ritualistic routine of daily prayers. I engage in a conversation with Him on a one-to-one level, more for thanking him for what He's given me than persuading him to grant sundry wishes.
My upbringing has been very secular, not just because my parents have brought me up in such a broad-minded atmosphere but also because of the values imbued in me in by my school, Loreto Convent. A Christian missionary school, it has helped me to appreciate the significance of all the festivals that we celebrate here in India.
But then again I wouldn't say that I don't visit holy places at all. I have been to the Vaishno Devi shrine almost 14 times, not so much out of reverence but more because of the nature of my dad's job: an army man. What really intrigues me about the place is that people will go to any lengths to express their devotion to the almighty.
As far as spirituality and meditation is concerned, I don't think that I have attained the level wherein I would want to acquire that ultimate communion with Him.
Whatever life has on offer for me, I am very content with it. Why should I get into something that will elicit only a half-hearted input from me? At this point in life I am not serious about all these things but taking it up sometimes later in life is always a possibility. I would say I am on the path of evolution towards spirituality.
There is no particular situation or time that I particularly remember Him. It comes to me automatically, whenever I am passing by a place of worship or see an idol. I never miss any opportunity to thank Him for all the things that he's given to me. He has really been good to me. He's granted all my wishes and I will be eternally grateful to Him for all that he's blessed me with.
And that's what makes me want to repay Him for all the beauty that he's spread in my life. I have tried to be a good human being and that has been a huge responsibility for me. I have consciously never hurt people or for that matter I can't even think of doing nasty things to people. I am not a sinner and I am sure God appreciates me for just the way I am.
- As told to Natasha Grover
First Published: Aug 19, 2003 11:57 IST