Demi Lovato opens up about losing virginity in a rape, having suicidal thoughts
American pop star Demi Lovato has always been very open with her mental health battles and consequent drug overdose and rehabilitation, and after the release of her YouTube Originals docu-series Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil, the Sorry Not Sorry singer has taken the opportunity to highlight her struggles with mental health and how she now has the support system to bounce back when things get dark. In a recent interview with People, the 26-year-old singer shared with the magazine how she dealt with suicidal thoughts, "Suicidal thoughts are something that I've had my whole life, and if it were to ever get dark again, I have an incredible support system. Because I am an empath, I feel so deeply and so extreme, to where it does get really dark but I have the support system around me now where I don't let it marinate at all in my thoughts."
She added that now she knows she's not alone, saying, "I immediately reach out to people, and then from there, we figure out what treatment plan I need, and sometimes it's just going to sleep. Sometimes it's journaling, it's a meditation, whatever it is with my treatment team. But I have found many things that help me in those moments." The Heart Attack singer added, "I have tons of resources and tools and I feel prepared, which I hadn't felt prepared a few years ago," she says.
Previously the songstress also revealed the details of losing her virginity in a rape at 15 years old and how she's learned to heal from that trauma. "Sometimes people hear my music from when I was a teenager and they're like, 'Oh, you were so angry.' I'm like, 'Yeah, and now you guys get to see why I was so angry,'" she said.
She went on, "Having put that out in front of the camera and knowing that people have seen that, it's freeing. It's empowering. It's liberating. And it really lets that anger that was inside of me dissolve. I had let go of a lot of the anger beforehand, but this was kind of just the final send-off, like, okay, I can really heal from this now."
The Solo singer also said that she feels like she now has a fresh start, "It feels like such a fresh start. I feel like I am the freest I've ever been. It feels great to live in my truth fearlessly.I feel proud, but I also know I'm not hanging my hat up yet," said Lovato.
The actor told People magazine, "I have so much work to continue to do, and the work that I've done has been so exciting because it's opened up my doors to my spirituality, embracing my identity, coming into myself more and just exploring that."
In a podcast she had shared how drugs had in a way saved her life, saying, "In the same way it almost killed me, it saved my life at times because there were times that I dealt with suicidal ideations. And had I gone forward with that in that moment, instead of another destructive coping mechanism, I wouldn't be here to tell my story. I turned to those coping mechanisms because I genuinely was in so much pain that I didn't want to die and I didn't know what else to do."